This project was an experiment I performed in September 2024 in celebration of my birthday. I wanted to make time to prioritize music, and so I took a week off from work for my birthday and isolated myself in a “Glamping” style cabin without internet (but I retained phone signal) with my music equipment. I brought a Bass, Electric, and Acoustic guitars, along with an 88 key midi, and a Korg Minilogue xd, microphones, etc. The goal was to bring together a creative project that expressed the feelings I held at that time.
During that time period, I had been doing my best to hold it together and to be “high functioning” even though I was having a rough time. The disparity between my relatively structured and put together outer appearance at work, and in general relationships was difficult to manage when compared to the tangle of thoughts and emotions I felt as well. I also was experiencing some difficulties with intimacy due to unprocessed trauma that were getting in the way of my budding romance. This culminated in a 4 song project that expressed several aspects of my experience. First in “Stranded”, I express my desire to move beyond anxiety, and to leave that behind. I wrote this song to a “personified pain". Second in “Long Gone”, to feel the hurt that comes from vulnerability occasionally. Vulnerability is an act of trust and you must accept risk of being burned, it's part of the deal. Third in “Take Care, I Love You”, I wanted to feel and be better. sometimes when I hurt, I just need a lullaby that makes me feel better. Fourth in “Broken Mirror”, I was sad. just very sad.